When I am experiencing psychosis (which I term the other reality) everything becomes weighted with subconscious meaning, every thought I have, every little word someone utters, it ties into a larger more important usually life or death situation – (delusion). The fearful thing about it is, that is totally grips me. I totally believe all the weird delusions as if they were just fact. I think some strange things (like my nose is falling out my face, that my inner spirit is floating round in the ...
Is your mind more important than what is external, or is the external more important than your mind? An interesting question indeed! From my experience of being on the other side of sanity, not necessarily being insane but definitely not sane, I would say, your mind is the most important thing in comparison to external reality. I conclude this from when not having a mind absent from illness it doesn’t matter how normal life is going on around you, you simply can not function. This is because ...
These are some feelings I have deduced after being ill about hope as this I felt had 'died' with a person I cared for. With him my life vanished, left with no direction, on my own to try to sort out my life again. I did indeed have a break down (a year later) as I managed to plod on until then. This is not really only about mental illness but just the feelings we all have about hope.......... This thing called ‘hope’ has such an impact on our lives. It can clear the clouds; have ...
The valley: This was a place in my mind the very darkest and blackest part of my mind (literally not symbolically). There would be other people there as spirits trying to sleep, but this was made difficult because there were two layers of people some in Hell at the bottom of my head and others in Heaven which where at the top of my head standing on a shelf as it were. The people in hell were able to sleep because they had the ground to sleep on but the people in heaven had to stand up all the ...
So from the start I began to hear noices that seemed to tell me things. For instance the TV would be talking about me, making me more paranoid and also this feeling of being totally exposed and that other people were laughing at me. The birds were totally harassing, they taunted me about sensitve and personal things, which made me anrgy at first but then just upset me. These noices that are ubiquitous in life became something abnormal, fearful and there was no possiblity of running away fromt ...
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