update on echo

[echo78]

hi all,
over the passed three weeks my moods have been slowly get higher.
The other day i grabbed my son by the coller of his shirt and pushed him over. just because he put on some socks with holes in them. we was getting ready to go out to school and we was a little late as it was. i am so on the edge of doing some damage. so i rang my CPN and she was not in so i talked to some one else in the team. so he said to contact my GP and ask him to give me some thing to calm down. i explained that i am irritated by every thing and anything. i shouted at an woman who would not move out the way. my head was so full with the voices trying to get my attention. every time some one looked at me i instantly felt i know what they thinking and my mind was set and no one could change my mind set. So he gave me some 2mg diazapam. its still 2nd day on the meds but he said i could double the dose if it does not help enough. then he rang the hospital to get me an appointment on the 18th of Sept.
i feel so guilty for my behaviour and it not right that i take things out on other my family/people. i did not realize i was so bad till rowan told his dad what happened. sigh it hit me i need some kind of help.
sigh
em xxx

[Joel]

Hello Echo,

I am so sorry that you are going through a bad time at the moment. Remember though that Psychosis goes through good phases, where you dont get as many voices, and bad phases, where your voices are out of control. You are unfortunately going through a bit of a bad phase at the moment. There are two crumbs of comfort you can take from your current predicament.

Firstly you recognise that you need help. That is the first step to confronting the problem. Therefore maybe the psychiatrist can help you and give you a new drug or something.

Secondly though you are a going through a bad phase at the moment the good times will return again so hang in there and be strong. I know that it is easier said than done. But just remember that you will get better in time.

Kind Regards,

Joel

[echo78]

Thank Joel for you supportive post. :) I know you are right that hopefully it will pass soon. rather than later. i just started to painting again and it kind of helped to focused but i still get the rapid thinking and really bad thoughts. Also i have the dam voices commenting on the picture an painting. i would have not done it that way. got your crap at this yadayadayada :rolleyes:
ho well
thanks again
em xxx

[sara]

hi - glad to hear that you are painting again. I'd like to echo what Joel was saying. We all get ups and downs and even though you've been having it pretty rough, this difficult time will pass. Thinking of you. Sara

[echo78]

thanks sara for you kind words. :) in fact thansk every one.
hugs and love to all
em xxx